When society pushes one to the brinks of breaking how do you calm the beast from within?

I try and forgive but, relentless aults encomp my life and I swallow it but, it creates bitterness within my soul and I try to release it through faith exercises and daily regimen's of physical exercise but only to no prevail. My enemy encomp themselves on all sides and try to instigate a reaction to further discredit my love for Jesus and the father and all the holy ones who were tormented thoroughly till there death was time. What happens if I just can't take it anymore and lash out do I loose my soul to the one who stands by and watches as the torment continues. When will his chains be put on him as peace be instituted so as to bring calm to my world.God bless all and thanks